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| Hah. Xanga!
It's been a long time since I've typed or looked at Xanga. Instantly, I think back to the high school days, updating daily and spending countless hours trying to make new layouts (man I had no life). Xanga was such a pivotal part of my high school life, and now its Facebook that rules and controls my hours in the day.
It's been two years that I've gone through college, and now I'm in my third. Funny how time flies. I don't I would have ever imagined me as who I am today as who I am today. I really think I've changed a lot over the years in so many different ways. These past four months especially have been tough and have been significant in my part of becoming more of a man.
And look at me now, I'm going to be leaving for Johnson and Johnson in a couple of months.
If you didn't know, I'll be working with J&J under a co-op program in which I'll work in the Logistics Integration program.
Six months living the corporate life and working 40+ hrs/wk.
Yes, this means I'll be graduating a semester late, but I really don't mind at all.
There's nothing really here to hold me back other than the fun memories I'm missing with friends.
There's no girlfriend, no EXTREMELY major commitments (sorry AASU and ECAASU..but I'm still helping out for sure!)... I dunno.. it just seems like the perfect opportunity and the perfect time to leave. Maybe it's time for me to go out there and spread my wings. I've been cooped up in here and I haven't really broadened my horizons. Yes, its only New Jersey, and yes, its only two and a half hours away, but... regardless..it's still away.. and it's away from all of you.
God definitely provides and gives direction when you're in need. I've learned that this semester.
Another thing I learned...err.. more like got hit in the face with was...
Scary how quickly we grow up...
What the heck, I'm in my twenties now. My twenties!!! No more teens, no more 1- something.
And this all happened just yesterday. Sheesh.
I remember last week at Crabfest sitting with Tiffany and Rita, feeling really really really really old..because we sat with Freshman who were talking about high school. We definitely aren't part of that crowd now.
To be honest, I'm glad to be past that. I'm glad to be past a lot of the hardships and struggles I've had to this point. I'm glad I'm sitting here today, being in my situation. But my struggles were necessary for me to be here, so I'm thankful. I just wouldn't want to relive any of those moments.
I'm realizing though the future has so much in store and that its fast approaching. I underestimate how precious time is and how fast it moves. It's ticking away as I write this note. It's something I can never get back.
That's why I'm trying not to take things as seriously as I always have. To enjoy life while working hard. Maybe that's why I didn't find my first couple of years in college enjoyable. Maybe that's why I didn't enjoy high school. Maybe that's why.
This year, this school year, this month.. it's different.
I've met so many people this year.. well in the past year and I can't believe what amazing people I've come to know and appreciate in my life. Even this birthday was a different one this year, and I definitely loved every moment of it. October is always a bad month for me, but this one.. this one had a nice touch to it in the end, even with its ups and downs.
But, I feel like a new man, a new person, a new life. I feel like, I can do anything, I can be anyone, I can be free.
I've come to learn to be more forgiving, accepting, and most importantly of all, learned the importance of Grace.
This note was random, but it felt really good to let some stuff off my chest.
I missed xanga.
Hopefully I'll write here soon.
PS. I better see some EPROPS UP IN HEREEEEE! ahaha just kidding =P
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| Life is on the upside 
--------------------------------- CHORUS:
Shaden:
Gimme that beat boys, gimme that flow
Let me live within the rhythm, let me free my soul, and drift away
Give me that beat boys, give me that flow
Let me live within the rhythm, let me free my soul
X2
Direct:
Let me drift away, reminiscing the days I miss
listening to hits played on 92 and 106,
sitting in my room, hearing the tunes, of 2pac,
bone and biggy be blaring from my puny boom box
From the crossroads, to juicy, to life goes on,
I used to rock, the fugees, the old skool songs.
like regulate, my favorite from warren and nate,
I was always saving up all my money so I can blow it on tapes.
Cuz after school, I would walk straight to the record shop,
and walk through every section stopping at hip hop.
just ta find a song to buy to bring back home, so
I can sing along, when I feel lonesome.
That's what I did just to pass the time.
I was a, young kid, but the sound was sublime.
Cuz the music, I always found, to be therapeutic.
looking back at my life now, I know how, I got through it.
CHORUS
T:
Growing up, I was social but, never was the type to open up
So my closest friends were never close enough
I suppose to them I was emotionless...
So, my headphones were my constant companions
Around my neck they were constantly hanging
And late at night when I'm haunted by phantoms
The songs I would jam would subconsciously ban them
And damn
I know it's just lyrics and beats
But lyrics to me are like infinite peace
And peace
Is what hip hop had brought me
Strumming my pain like it was "Killing Me Softly"
Killing me, but what a way to die
Overdosed on flows, comatose on rhymes
And I
Wanna drift away
Staying conscious enough just to hit replay, okay...
CHORUS
Shaden:
Gimme the b-boys, the freestyle shows, I wanna get lost in that hip hop soul
Direct & T:
C'mon mister DJ, don't let me down now
Take me away from today with surround sound
And drown out all the noise from the outside
World while I curl up and close both my brown eyes
And cool down, let me sink the song
Believing every lyric as I lip synch along
See it talks to me, it whispers in rhymes
Relating life stories that ain't too different than mine
So gimme that beat boys, and free my soul
I wanna get lost if it's possible
Cuz these songs ease my thoughts and let my herat sleep
While the bassdrum replaces my heartbeat
CHORUS
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